Monday, June 1, 2015

American Sniper

Last night I watched the acclaimed movie, American Sniper and was literally left speachless.  The story is about Navy SEAL sniper Chris Kyle and his pinpoint accuracy, how he saves countless lives on the battlefield and turns him into a legend. Back home to his wife and kids after four tours of duty, however, Chris finds that it is the war he can’t leave behind.

American Sniper is kind of terrible. Awful in a way that is almost shocking. A pointless, utterly worthless endeavor that is only salvaged by a fantastic performance from star Bradley Cooper. And it’s not terrible because it’s a jingoistic or insultingly patriotic (which it is). It’s terrible because Clint Eastwood has told the most threadbare of stories. The movie is ultimately about nothing, and the ending is downright insulting. I’m going to be getting into some major spoiler territory ahead, so if you haven’t seen the movie, stop reading when I start to discuss the movie’s baffling end point.
Chris Kyle (Bradley Cooper) is a self-professed good ol’ boy from Texas. He rides wild bucks in the rodeo, drinks beer, wears boots, and is unpretentious in the best possible way. His priorities are God, family, and country. In that order. He’s drifting through clad in denim, draped in women, and enjoying this little life he’s carved out for himself. Then, he hears about some terrorist attacks happening overseas (pre 9/11) and decides it’s time to serve his country. Chris joins the Navy SEALS and begins a rigorous training process which few are able to complete. At 30, he’s older than the average recruit, but he has the resolve to push through and ends up becoming an elite sniper.
The film’s opening is one of the most thrilling scenes I can recall. It’s the same one featured in the trailer. A woman and a young boy exit a building as a US convoy full of Marines heads their way. She hands him a makeshift grenade and he begins running towards the troops. Is he turning in a weapon they found, or is he about to commit an act of terrorism that will cost soldiers their lives. The first five minutes of the movie are amazing. It’s like every ounce of tension, drama, and character are woven into that one moment. Then, director Clint Eastwood spends the remainder of the movie draining out all those important elements as the movie slowly bleeds out.
The character is such an enigma. A patriot in every sense of the word. He doesn’t question ‘why’, even when everyone else around him does. It’s an unpopular war. Even the soldiers tasked with achieving freedom in Iraq have a cynical attitude towards a war that is doing little to protect anything other than American interests in the region. Chris maintains his commitment to the cause, even when it almost tears his marriage apart. He struggles with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. His 160 kills have made him a legend in the military, but the horrors he’s witnessed are weighing heavier and heavier. Chris finally finds some solace helping other Veterans deal with the physical and emotional scars of war.
I didn’t know a thing about Chris Kyle before seeing this movie. The basic story felt thematically reminiscent of Hurt Locker. A guy who is really good at his job sees a lot of horrific violence in a nebulous war and for some reason the job becomes more important than the life he’s left behind. Hardly original, but certainly an average portrayal. Eastwood delivers a very ‘matter of fact’ movie. It’s a frills free look at a sniper in a combat zone, and some drama on the home front. It never finds that tension or perfection of the first few minutes. This is one of the truest instances of ‘everything good is in the trailer’. If you’ve seen the trailer, you’ve seen everything exceptional about American Sniper. The rest of it is dead average, and the ending… oh my God the ending. Stop reading if you want to avoid some major spoilers.
As I said before, I knew nothing about Chris Kyle. I knew he was a real person and that this was a true story. The film ends abruptly. We’ve seen Chris helping other veterans featuring some nice moments where Chris finally begins to understand that helping his fellow soldiers may take more than killing the enemy. We see Chris at home with his family, finally achieving a small sense of peace. Then he tells his wife he’s going to take a drive to help another soldier in need. Then, everything fades to black and a graphic shows on-screen.
“Chris was killed that day by the soldier he was trying to help.”
Then, we see actual footage of Chris’ funeral procession.
There were three words that went through my head. The first two were “What” and “The”. I’ll spare you the third. He was killed by the soldier he was trying to help? How? Why? What were the events leading up to that moment? A thousand questions bouncing around my cranium. Some subsequent research informed me that he and another soldier were shot in the back while at a rifle range. Details are scarce because the accused killer hasn’t gone to trial yet. This is where I start to get angry at Clint Eastwood. Because maybe it’s me, but I think there might be a pretty good story there somewhere that would have made the end of American Sniper feel less insulting. Maybe Eastwood and company could have waited another year or two before filming the biographical feature film of ‘America’s Greatest Sniper’ so that we could have a proper ending.

Friday, May 15, 2015

Wild - The journey

I read the book Wild by Cheryl Strayed about a year ago and watched the movie last night.  The story is about a womans journey to find herself along the 1,000 mile hike along the Pacific Crest Trail. I really enjoyed the book, great sense of who she was and what she was dealing with. To have a failed marriage, betrayal, and the passing of her mother from cancer in a very short amount of time. Cherly's idea of solitude surrounded by the quiet and serene setting of nature itself was far from the truth. Despite all the trials and hardships, Cheryl endures mile after mile, day after day with more confidence and resolve to continue her journey. She meets other hikers who appreciate and admire her strength and drive, especially given she is tackling this hike alone. While the book gave a current perspective of her reflections, the movie provided great insight from her insights as a child on different memories, which I really liked. So many different issues to think about, how would you handle things, how you learn from past situations, how you find peace, resolve, and forgiveness. Reese Witherspoon did an amazing job, her range and adaptation for Cheryl's character was spot on.
#wild #CherylStrayed #journey #peace

Friday, April 24, 2015

Through the eyes


Do you ever wonder how you look through the eyes of others?  As a mother to 3 wonderful children, I think about their viewpoint constantly.... Am I doing enough, am I patient, am I setting a good example, am I strong and confident in their eyes? 
Last night the kids school had their Art and Science night where each class showcase different projects. Carolyn and Nick's class also made special flowers describing their mothers. It was a blessing and affirmation that in their eyes I am doing okay as a mother. Moments like this is what makes parenting such an honor.
 

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Nature at it's best

Happy Earth Day 2015! What a great opportunity to appreciate the wonderful earth and nature that we have surrounding us. For the past few years we have made a trip to Yosemite, a simply breathtaking place. It never ceases to amaze me the natural beauty Yosemite has to offer. The kids love being in nature, going on hikes, and enjoying the river with the beautiful backdrop of half dome. I feel so fortunate that we live in an area that we can take advantage of this natural beauty and all that it has to offer. What is your favorite place to visit to take in nature?

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Daily Motivation

As summer quickly approaches us I am more than ever motivated to eat healthy and exercise on a regular basis. I find that the more I try to focus on how I am caring for myself, the better my attitude gets. It is important to take time for yourself, but so often with working full time, managing the kids crazy schedules along with homework and housework, the time for "me" is left on the side. Trying to find that balance so that I can take the time needed for me and my physcial and mental health. Thinking about signing up for another half marathon, having a deadline/goal is always great motivation for me. Something about making the committment really kicks my training in high gear.

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Strong is beautiful


I recently ran in a race in Santa Cruz called the She is Beautiful. It was a great run dedicated to woman and their strength and beauty. Along the route they had great inspirational quotes which made the run so enjoyable.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

What Alice Forgot


I recently read the book entitled What Alice Forgot and last night met with the book club to discuss it. It was a gripping story about a 39 year old woman who has an accident and cannot remember the last 10 years of her life. She thinks she is recently married and pregnant with her first child- when in fact she has three children and is going through a very ugly divorce. As she tries to understand how her life is, her children are, her friends are, and why she and her husband are going through a divorce she comes to several important realizations. In discussing the book last night there were several questions that we discussed as a group and one of them really struck a chord with me- Are you more like the younger Alice or the older Alice and are you proud of your parenting style with your children. This was a very hard question to answer for me, and some of the other women also struggled to pinpoint their answer. Our oldest child just turned 7 in March, so ten years ago, it was just me and my husband- what did we do with all of our time? It was hard for many of us to remember what that was like- almost like we too like Alice couldn't remember or relate. In the world I live in now, we are constantly on the go- soccer, tee ball, or ballet practice, kids birthday parties, making lunches, helping with homework, volunteering at the school and/or church. I have this great sense of having to keep all the balls in motion while maintaining a calm disposition- is that even possible when working full time and managing 3 children under the age of 7? I desire to have a calm, relaxed environment for the children to grow up in, yet so often I find myself stressed or anxious to ensure all is perfect..... where is the balance? I like Alice, need to be more flexible and patient when understand the current situation/surroundings. Try to take a step back and see if it is worth the effort, stress, and emotions in whatever you may encounter. As I have mentioned before, I think a lot has to do with the environment that our family is currently in. My husband and I both work full time, with demanding jobs that require a lot from us Monday-Friday. On the weekends, we are busy with sporting events which occupy quite a bit of time, yet the kids love them- it is part of the American dream- yet we still have to get house chores done, grocery shopping for the week, homework/book reports completed, and then have time to ourselves as a family. I need to remind myself more often that it started with my husband and I, and the love we had built a wonderful family with three amazing children. Cherish these years, because like everyone says they grow up so fast- which is so true, it is hard to believe our oldest is 7 and the twins will be 6 in August. Try to be patient, calm, relaxed, flexible- especially when the situation is stressful and unnerving at the moment- take a deep breath and push away the stress- be better to live in the moment.